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I have stumbled upon this site [link] and I was wondering if I could vote too and comment. But as I read on, it was just for people who will be voting in the same country it was pertaining to.

No offense meant to anyone but I believe that what the parents teach and instill on a child will be brought upon by the child until the day he/she dies. Only, when the child is old enough to make their own choices are those beliefs, culture , values, tradition gets altered. I am saddened by this site.

I grew up in a family with Roman Catholic as a religion, been to a Catholic school almost all of my school days, taught exclusively by nuns and priests during my pre-school years, and was brought up with the necessary values in life that would empower me through life.

As I grew up, I was free to make my own choices under the guidance, love and care of my parents, me peers and my guardians. I was also exposed to the society and was active in different organizations in,around and out of the school. In my 29 years of living in this planet, I was able to meet different people with different beliefs, culture, tradition, values and religion. People from different parts of the planet and people with different attitude and upbringings. I was able to understand life fully not only with what I was brought up with, not only with my breeding and my education but with constant realization that LIFE is important no matter how you live it. I went on surviving all these years by learning from my own mistakes and of others. I make my own choices not only because of my upbringing but because I take humanity as something to be respected. I have the free will on anything and everything but there are times that I also have to think of other people.

I learned to accept life as it is by simply being me. I started loving myself and respecting it fully. I accepted the fact that there are things in life that come and go, that there are people who need others to live while some people prefer to be alone. In shot, I learned to accept life and everything that comes with it.

WE make our own choices. but when we do, we shouldn’t blame other people if the outcome turns out bad. What our life becomes is often than not because of how we stir our own wheels.

People of the third sex our also human. They have every right to live in this world. Why can’t some people just live and let live?

Nica

Thu Oct 16, 2008

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

by: Pablo Neruda

—————– i like this poem so much! it’s actually better in Spanish! :-)————-

"Si Tu Me Olvidas"
    By Pablo Neruda

    Quiero que sepas
    una cosa.

    Tú sabes cómo es esto:
    si miro
    la luna de cristal, la rama roja
    del lento otoño en mi ventana,
    si toco
    junto al fuego
    la impalpable ceniza
    o el arrugado cuerpo de la leña,
    todo me lleva a ti,
    como si todo lo que existe:
    aromas, luz, metales,
    fueran pequeños barcos que navegan
    hacia las islas tuyas que me aguardan.

    Ahora bien,
    si poco a poco dejas de quererme
    dejaré de quererte poco a poco.

    Si de pronto
    me olvidas
    no me busques,
    que ya te habré olvidado.

    Si consideras largo y loco
    el viento de banderas
    que pasa por mi vida
    y te decides
    a dejarme a la orilla
    del corazón en que tengo raíces,
    piensa
    que en esa día,
    a esa hora
    levantaré los brazos
    y saldrán mis raíces
    a buscar otra tierra.

    Pero
    si cada día,
    cada hora,
    sientes que a mí estás destinada
    con dulzura implacable,
    si cada día sube
    una flor a tus labios a buscarme,
    ay amor mío, ay mía,
    en mí todo ese fuego se repite,
    en mí nada se apaga ni se olvida,
    mi amor se nutre de tu amor, amada,
    y mientras vivas estará en tus brazos
    sin salir de los míos.

What  I do in life is none of your business!!! What I do at work or how i deal with my peers is none your business!!! What ever my fiance and mine’s problem is for us to deal with, face and fix! no matter what we do in our life or what i do in life does not concern you nor does it affect you so quit on watching every move I make!!! Why don’t you take a look at your life instead and mind your own freaking business?!

Hindi kayo ang nagpapalamon sa pamilya ko at hindi rin kayo ang nakikisama sa pamilya ni Migs at lalong hindi namin kailangan ang mga katulad niyo sa buhay namin kung ganyan rin lang na sa bawat kibot ng isa’t isa amin ay inyong pinanonood at pinag iisipan ng kung anu ano!

Hindi ko kayo kilala at mas lalong hindi niyo kami ganoong kakilala! Datapuwat magkakasama tayo paminsan minsan, yun lang yun!

KAYA WAG KAYONG MAGMAGALING!!!

WALA KAYONG PAKIALAM KUNG SINO KASAMA KO AT PAANO AKO MAKIHALOBILO SA IBA!!

intiendez?!

English

i turned to look at you
you were so far away
i tried to reach
yet i couldn’t even grasp a shadow of you

not even a glimpse of your face

there’s a veil that continues to shroud your being

a fleeting moment of ecstasy
enough to remind me of that short time we have spent together
continues to haunt me

there’s a nagging feeling inside me that won’t go away
it lives me restless

why?

again i wonder why do i feel this way

perhaps when i see you again, it’ll stop
it’ll all go away
either because everything will be clear
or
everything will be twarted because of rejection

If  a relationship with you is what I want
then
why do I hurt this way?
If there is no commitment to be given
then
why do I fear such things that aren’t even spoken of?
If it is okay with the two of us
then
why am I weeping right now?

i’m lonely… no one understands
what if i do?
what if i want to understand?

that conversation that has come to pass
still it keeps on ringing in my ears

now i realize
it is because, more or less you have made me realize
that it wasn’t just me who’s lost.

or are you really?

——————————————————

Spanish

¿di vuelta a la mirada en usted que
usted era así que lejano
intenté alcanzar
con todo no podría incluso agarrar una sombra de usted

no igualo una ojeada de su cara

allí soy un velo que continúa cubriendo su ser

un momento efímero del ecstasy
bastante para recordarme ése a corto plazo nosotros ha pasado junto
continúa frecuentándome

allí es una sensación que regaña dentro de mí que no vaya lejos
él viva yo agitado

porqué?

¿me pregunto otra vez porqué lo hago siento esta manera

quizás cuando le veo otra vez, él lo pararé
todo iré lejos
cualquiera porque todo estará claro o será todo twarted debido a el rechazamiento
si una relación con usted es lo que deseo entonces porqué lastimo esta manera?

¿Si no hay comisión entonces que se dará porqué lo hace el miedo de I tales cosas de las cuales incluso no se hablen?
¿Si es aceptable con los dos de nosotros entonces porqué la I que llora ahora?

soy solo… ¿nadie entiende
lo que si?
¿qué si deseo entender?

esa conversación que ha venido todavía
pasarlo guarda en el sonido en mis oídos

ahora que realizo
es porque, más o menos usted han hecho que realiza que no era justo yo que ha perdido.

¿o está usted realmente?            

I was awaken by a loud knock on our bedroom door this morning… irate, i opened it up only to find out it’s just my horrible house mate who wants to have a loaf of bread from the bakery.

some people… gifted with complete parts of the body, the ability to think, to walk straight and fit enough to do chores/tasks/ almost if not- everything! yet, are so freaking LAZY!!!

before i went to the bakery, i noticed this person who was suppose to be at work still asleep on the bed. damn! there he goes again… hmp!

anyway, i just went on, angry and frustrated, took a bath, dressed up and left the house. I headed straight to one of the good companies situated at the heart of eastwood City and *shwing!*shwing*shwing*

i don’t know what happened. or at least i was too taken aback how fast it all happened! one minute I was ther sitting, angry and frustrated, jobless and feeling so hot then all of a sudden I was in training with (oh goodie) my former colleagues from my last company! hahaha

Not only did i get a job but i got a compensation package that , being jobless, took me 3 months to earn.

But wait…there’s more!

My former wave buddy was one of these people who was there and two L2 Tech agents whom I just see (and wonder how and what made them become L2s) on the floor were also there for the training. Heck they were fun to be with - not even a single boastfulness in them. (cause i thought they were all snobs way back in my former company) sorry guys!

But wait… there’s more!!

Throughout the day, we were just laid back during the training and we are already being paid for the day

After the training (uwian time) I stumbled upon my former colleague at a Local fast food chain. Damn! He looks so good now! The wonderful thing about it was that he still remembers me and Boy was he glad to see me again.

When I got home… hmpf! well i forgot how hungry i was (left early in the morning without having any breakfast, was not able to eat lunch ’cause I didn’t have enough to buy one earlier and did not bring a pack since I wasn’t expecting that i’ll be shoved for the training right away) Good thing we have sinigang and Milkfish with black beans! hahaha sumptuous meal!

Now… have to review for a quiz for tomorrow (part of training certification) :-p

Good night everyone!

I can’t think of anything to write right now. All I want is to share with you this song, the lyrics and what it says. It reflects what I feel right now… it’s like… it is voicing out part of my thoughts right now… 9i just wish I could find a better translation of this in English but what the heck… okay na ‘to.)

watch this and listen =)

Translation: Spanish » English

(Jaycees)
Anadaweng
Jaycees, Nelly Furtado
I would like to meet you
I would like to tell you that my nights are not the same without you
And now that I am a single tenpano ice lost in the dark
And by that I’m seeing some day return

(Nelly Furtado)
In The Day
In The Night
Say it All
Say it right
You either got it
Or you do not
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there’s no time for joking
There’s a hole in the plan

(Jaycees)
I walk in the night lost in the dark (Ono)
I can not dertenerme
I believe and have faith that someday I’m going to find
There in that place
Where many times today and we were no longer these
I’m Lost in the dark
I want you to talk
And get back

Just be honest kiero
That your life was the first
Ke felt true love
Q q And as you know there is nobody
As acarisias my skin as I do love
As I besas the naked
Love me feel cold
Only in the vacuum
To leave at home (Hey)
Without you I am lost
Only hindered (Aha)
He returned my love please

I walk in the night lost in the dark (Ono)
I can not dertenerme
I believe and have faith that someday I’m going to find
There in that place
Where many times today and we were no longer these
I’m Lost in the dark
I want you to talk
And get back

(Nelly Furtado)
From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?

(Jaycees)
This simply reaffirm the calibre
WY company that owns the records
Nelly Furtado and presume that this new mark
terriotia in the urban music Jaycees
Gentle you’re going to give an account of what I am talking about

can you help me?

it’s raining and i’m all alone…
a love that was born out of the blue
a love that stood against all odds
now lays shattered…

a friend came by
an acquaintance stood by
a lover held me enthralled
yet all passed by apalled

love’s so crazy
love’s so mysterious
love holds you in unimaginable grasp
in awe with every desire unthinkable

how can i go on?
when i know i gave it all
oh this wall
ponding, fisting, screaming
this wall won’t fall

i wish you won’t turn and close the door
each day i’m missing you all the more

nica estaris
may 22, 2008
3:28 pm

i wish i knew why
i wish i knew how

all these questions
lie seering with pain

my body
needs some peaceful slumber
yet my mind succumbs
to hideous thoughts

i looked at you
and i felt a seething emotion
i saw love in your eyes
as i turned away from your smile

or was it?

now i wonder if i might have been fooling myself…
desperately hoping there would be a spark

somewhere
somehow

all i could tell myself now is No.
all i could hear right now is Silence.
all i could feel right now is the throbbing of my heart
tears streaming out on my cheek

is this what you have wanted?
is this the price i must take
for falling inlove with you?

fiddling the keys of my computer
there is nothing else that could describe
what i desire right now

hear me out
that’s most likely what i would shout
if there’s a bottle of beer in my hand

but there is none…

and so is you…

NICA
re-written March 29, 2008
01:57a.m.

the ambience
the sweet scent of mixed perfumes
the aroma of the delicacies
the night’s intricacy

the night was cool…
music’s great
people beaming
everyone in a carefree feeling

reminiscing…

a part of me
seemed left behind
everything i’ve been holding unto
got interlaced with the night’s breeze

re-living…

so sweet…
so nice…

but why?
i feel empty…

damn!

ironic…

there
in the place where everything was almost perfect

i stay shattered.

NICA
Dec. 27,2007

sound tripping to a music that i don’t even hear
reminiscing of the times we have shared
i feel  restless … tired
an oblivion of anxiety
lies awake
awaiting
enigmatic

confounded… by the way you came gliding into my life. 

lost…
lost in translation
ecstatic
  frolicking
looking for a clear picture

blurry…
everything’s jaded

still hanging on…
moving
  circling in the season of the abyss

drinking
venting
tears flowing down
sighing
  thinking

endless possibilities… there’s a lot and yet  they are all
shattering
  push coming to shove
emotions taking over

time…it slowly slips away

life freaking goes on!