ChApTerS

i wish i knew why
i wish i knew how

all these questions
lie seering with pain

my body
needs some peaceful slumber
yet my mind succumbs
to hideous thoughts

i looked at you
and i felt a seething emotion
i saw love in your eyes
as i turned away from your smile

or was it?

now i wonder if i might have been fooling myself…
desperately hoping there would be a spark

somewhere
somehow

all i could tell myself now is No.
all i could hear right now is Silence.
all i could feel right now is the throbbing of my heart
tears streaming out on my cheek

is this what you have wanted?
is this the price i must take
for falling inlove with you?

fiddling the keys of my computer
there is nothing else that could describe
what i desire right now

hear me out
that’s most likely what i would shout
if there’s a bottle of beer in my hand

but there is none…

and so is you…

NICA
re-written March 29, 2008
01:57a.m.